Saturday, May 27, 2006
something that i wrote when i was studying outside previously.
有没有结局
事情还是一样
因为从来没有开始过。
没有开始又哪来的结果？
我到底在找什么？
life without you is far more miserable than i've ever imagined
我的泪水
你不在乎
我的心痛
你不在意
我的心思
你不能回应
我的再见
你听不到
永别了， 不会再见了。
i've gone back on my own words.
i'm starting to feel selfish again
每看你一次， 我就伤一次
我的心还没止血
又要开始流了。
stay by my side
i need you tonight
为何你能使我的心情有180度的转变？
不是说好要放下， 不再想了吗？
答应你要读书，
但，不够睡，又在想你了。
想你什么，不知道，就是想你。
心有点小痛， 但没办法，
也只能忍着心痛， 往前走。
说什么都没用。
being emo when studying for exams seriously aint a good thing at all. haha
everything comes to an end at 5:56 PM.
突然想起你
你好吗？你也会偶尔想我吗？流星雨先生。
有男友毕竟不是一件那么美好的事。
你身边的不过是一个定时炸弹。
几时丢个炸弹给你也不知道。
一个人的心， 能受几次？
别为了别人而委屈了自己。
这不是爱的表现。
别因为自己不甘心而自欺欺人。
这只会显得你很幼稚。
别因为忠言逆耳而不听取别人的安慰。
这只会让你变得更幼稚。
everything comes to an end at 12:30 AM.
Thursday, May 18, 2006
i hope i will feel better after a shower with tears.
sigh
hope this fucking low feeling will tide over after my pms.
i wana talk to you. but i've got nothing entertaining to talk to you about. and i will be left with no energy for tmr's work. and i dont really wana be caught having awkward pauses within our conversation. i freakign hate my job for taking my life away when i should be enjoying.
i want you to be in sg this very minute..........
everything comes to an end at 11:10 PM.
Sunday, May 14, 2006
haha the smile never left my face while im talking to you.
how cool is that.
everything comes to an end at 9:25 PM.
Thursday, May 11, 2006
i heeded your advice to have some fun.
but somehow i dare not be as wild as you wanted me to.
i tried imagining that was you last night.
i tried to match his actions so that we will be synchronised
i tried to tease him like how i teased you
i let his hands hold me.
i let him protect my ass from any possible tiko hands.
i let him rub his pokey chin on my shoulders like how you used to.
i almost reached for his hands and made him hold me like you did
i almost leaned my heads onto his shoulders and dance the night away with him
i almost turned around and squeezed his ass like how i squeezed yours
sigh. that shows how much i missed you.
if only you can return soon.
if only he licked my ear the way you did
hooo ~ every last bit of discipline will be thrown outta the window
haha history will repeat itself. its a bloody vicious cycle man.
everything comes to an end at 12:54 PM.
Monday, May 08, 2006
i know its wrong
yet i cannot stop myself
time and time again
i wish i hadnt know you
but fate is a funny thing isnt it ?
what matters isnt really whether 2 people are fated to be together.
its more of whether they cherish the chance to know each other.
at least thats how i define fate
either i've let things slip thru my fingers unconsciously
or i am bloody cursed by those unforwarded chain emails :x
im sick of the emotional toil i let myself go thru every now and then.
i look forward to the day i seek release from my own prison.
i've locked myself in waiting for someone/something to set me free
if only cars and its accessories can be a quarter of its price
i'll be set free almost immediately
sigh
i need money and a well paid job.
everything comes to an end at 11:26 AM.
