Monday, July 31, 2006
its now that i realised, i've changed. i care less for others. i bullshit more(in a negative sense). and im more crude now. i dont think i can put this under pms anymore. lasted longer than usual didnt it? some sorta awakening for me ? idk. im prolly shunning everyone outta my life these days.
when was the last time anyone talked to me and i didnt feel pissed after awhile ?
when was the last time i had the patience to talk and listen to anyone of my friends ?
when was the last time i felt bad about being blunt ?
when was the last time i didnt roll my eyes at anything ?
when was the last time i thought before i spoke ?
when exactly did i start changing ?
when exactly did i start caring less for everything that i was /am involved in?
when ?
why didnt i realise i've changed so much ?
why have i changed ?
WHY ??
i can come up with a million reasons why. but, which exactly is truly the reason? peer influence? stress from work ? restlessness from work ? influence from jean tan? frustration with myself for not being able to do my own things anymore? that i really dont care ? that a part of me that i froze... was the essential part to keep my good heart going ? which ?
sigh. i need some time to sort my brains out a little. it used to be sorting my brains out to decide if i still liked a certain guy. but now, its just me and always me. godamn the weather ! fried my brains, killed my personality. GRRRRR
everything comes to an end at 2:59 AM.
Saturday, July 29, 2006
i really dont like sticky starfishes.
rahhh
everything comes to an end at 12:38 AM.
Friday, July 28, 2006
isolation.
everything comes to an end at 12:45 PM.
Wednesday, July 26, 2006
shit happens.
when your virtual identity catches you off guard in real life, how do you deal with it ?
especially when things said were either meant to be kept secret or very elaborated ?
i anticipate what is to come, yet i dread what may happen more.
everything comes to an end at 9:12 PM.
Saturday, July 22, 2006
一场失败的爱情像个笑话张学友-咖啡
那，一场失败的单恋不是更悲哀？
笑也不是，不笑也不是。
告不告白，进退两难。
前途一片黑暗，只能默默看着他。
整天没事做就想着他。
没什么能做的，就只能祝福他。
真的有一点想念单恋苦涩的滋味。
everything comes to an end at 10:32 PM.
Friday, July 21, 2006
two years ago.
feels like it happened so long ago.
the wound was so raw
so red, almost blood red
so unforgettable.
now i only struggle to remember.
you've been great company, just not long enough to last. heh.
and you?
i once thought we were meant to be, only at the wrong time.
but... you proved me wrong.
for now, the once explored territories will be sealed and locked until the next bastette comes along.
heh.
everything comes to an end at 10:52 PM.
Wednesday, July 12, 2006
又看见你
你和你同事一同下班
我叫住你
聊了两句
你走了
心里也明白
再这样迷恋下去也不是办法
但我又何尝没有试过忘记你？
有时真的很恨自己
为什么依然那么花痴
我真的很想忘记你
不想看见你一次
就high一次
够了
玩过火了
我是真得那么喜欢你吗？
我连这点都已经不清楚了
everything comes to an end at 11:34 PM.
Sunday, July 09, 2006
头很昏
脑很涨
身体最虚弱时
最需要人的关照
然而，
又会有谁来疼惜我呢？
everything comes to an end at 7:41 PM.
Wednesday, July 05, 2006
一个人陷入低潮期
没有人陪伴，也没有人相随
一时之间，觉得人生很奥妙
有着“没有朋友也行”的想法。
但一个人到底能坚持到什么时候呢？
又会有谁愿意伸出援手来呢？
+
吹吹风让自己冷静
也顺便把自己的心吹冷。
从此不再为任何事心跳加速。
只会慢慢的让一道一道墙绕我的心，
坚持孤独守候着自己。
everything comes to an end at 2:13 PM.
我们的游戏
没有规矩
没有开始
没有game over
想玩就玩
想走就走
这是“我们”的命运
its hard to forget what your heart wishes to remember.
its harder to remember what your heart wishes to forget.
its a very fine line that decides which category you fall into.
everything comes to an end at 2:11 PM.
Tuesday, July 04, 2006
一则一则的短讯
记载着我们的回忆
一则一则删掉
一点一点消失
一步一步往前走
很快， 很快会把你忘记
you customised my mindset.
then it was "we" think alike.
then "we" became extinct.
"we" never existed. because there werent any "our"memories.
the mindset slowly reverts back to its original wasted state, waiting for the next owner to come by.
everything comes to an end at 10:51 AM.
